I've Had Enough, by Jane Burns

Jane Burns smiling

Jane Burns was diagnosed with PTSD after a heart problem led to a car crash. She turned to poetry as a way of coming to terms with what happened.

I’ve had enough of letting this horrible thing define me
I’ve decided this is not how it’s going to be
 
No more negative days or nights 
Or even emotional draining fights
 
No more talking about the heart 
That was blocked and stopped and didn’t start
 
Or the car crash I had that I don’t remember
Or the memories lost at the start of December
 
That went on till August the following year 
With flashbacks, emotions and oceans of tears
 
No more counselling or anxiety management
Or talk of depression and hopelessness
 
No… No more… I’ve had enough
Because this journey has been really tough
 
It’s affected my head and my memory too
Not to mention my heart through and through
 
Just be patient, understanding
For each new day, my journey takes
 
You’ll see a new me, more positive than before
Today I am opening a brand new door
 
I can do anything I want if I put my mind to it
I just have to pace – yes, pace to get through it
 
I’m accepting I’m different than I was before
But my journey is ending of pain and sore
 
When I’m tired I’ll rest and maybe say “no”
To anyone who asks me to do a bit more
 
I’ll meet with my friends and have a night out
Instead of sitting alone on the couch
 
I’ll take up my writing and follow my heart
And you know what… this is just the start
 
I know I have a box in my chest 
That keeps my heart ticking just like the rest
 
But I’ve accepted now, there’s no reason for this
I guess I’m just lucky it didn’t get missed
 
I’ve promised myself it’s time to move on 
Time to start having much more fun
 
With my man by my side, I know I can do it
He knows where I’ve been and that I’ve come though it
 
From tomorrow morning when I wake up
I’m changing my life forever

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