14 September 2005
Just thought Id say, cant believe I DID IT. Over a year it really did work. I really dont want to go back to that grim habit. Since then I have inspired others to quit. I have a facial complexion that doesnt resemble a vampire!! and have taken up JOGGING. really weird, but feel FABULOUS, ***r than I did years ago. I felt I had no hope, but just hung on in there and believe me I was a chain smoker. U CAN DO IT and it is WORTH IT.
17 May 2005
What really keeps me going is the thought that I WILL NOT GO THROUGH ALL THIS AGAIN. I look at the smokers and am under no illusion I CAN JUST HAVE A FEW. I want 30 and then I FEEL REALLY ILL. Am now beginning to feel really good. Have gone on a CLEANING and SORTING FRENZY and it feels really good. Feel out of the fog of it all. Have volunteered to do some work for some people and life seems awash with possibility. WOW If your struggling keep going it is worth it.
09 May 2005
Really galloping along now and really grateful that I no longer smoke. Look at smokers and feel for them. It really is a trap. Mercifully craving and thoughts dissapearing and go whole days with not so much as a thought. If I smell it now it really gives me a HEADACHE.
Still have to use my inhaler but I think that is because my LUNGS ARE REPAIRING.
Energy levels are still weird and still feel desire to do more with hands but this can only be a good thing.
05 May 2005
Gonna start doing bit more walking as energy intermittent. Lost 12 pounds. Dont think about it most of the time which is a MIRACLE! Glad to be free of the trap for today. IF I DONT PICK UP THE FIRST ONE I WONT HAVE THE HABIT.
29 April 2005
Still praying and saying thanks at end of day to be FREE from the nico monster. All last week had ODD CRAVING completely illogical as I REALLY REALLY REALLY dont want to go back to the PRISON of this addiction. It affected me far more than I wanted to admit.
My daughter has also stopped. I have broken up with the smoking boyfriend (believe me it was the other bad habits)
Even noticing EXTRA MONEY and everyone says I look really HEALTHY which is better than the VAMPIRE from the crypt look I had as a 30 plus smoker.
Could not face quitting again that keeps ME GOING FORWARD. Whole days go by without really being aware of it and that is amazing.
Still eating reasonably healthy WEIGHT is slowly still coming OFF - slimming world is working never stuck to eating healthy like this before - always felt bad about myself cause I was killing myself and IM NOT ANY MORE.
Remember THE CRAVING WILL PASS WHETHER YOU SMOKE OR NOT...
11 April 2005
Cant believe Ive got this far, although my daughter has also stayed stopped. Energy coming back slowly. Have desires to undertake craft and hobbies and generally learn things, which hasnt happened before. Went down to Mums she had a cancer scare and she still stops and starts and I wasnt tempted. Just feel this great relief that im not in that trap where I have to keep feeding the craving forever more. still on the losing weight thing which is slow but over a stone gone so far!! Keep going out there it is worth it, one of the hardest things Ive ever done but as usual one of the best.
18 February 2005
been to slimming world classes and despite enormous scepticism lost weight. So glad I DONT SMOKE and that I am going some way to reduce TWO STONE I put on when I went on eating frenzy in early days!
Had craving or thoughts of smoking yesterday and was a nuisance, but gone today. Really enjoying having more money in my pocket bought myself some computer software (as a treat), and energy or interest in life returning slowly.
10 February 2005
Still dont like speaking to anyone who irritates me which is most people at moment. Really glad to be FREE OF THE WEED, but undergoing a PERSONALITY CHANGE. Makes you feel vulnerable and scratchy yet STRONG. Yesterday had weird desire to smoke and yet DONT WANT TO. I have been through hell and im not doing again. Feel real sleepy as well
01 February 2005
Cant believe it still off the dreaded fags. It seems a LIFETIME ago that I smoked and yet it was FIVE MONTHS. Energy has taken A LONG TIME to return, I thought it would never return (down to my age forty something!!), but I really am FEELING BETTER THESE DAYS and I DONT NEED THE AFTERNOON NAP!! This is great news. When I see smokers I dont think I want one I think thank goodness its not me having to FIX up all the time.
Not smoking IS AMAZING, I must not take it for granted at any stage.
13 January 2005
Didnt think about it all day, which I am taking for granted. cant believe it and getting lots of compliments on the way I look which is really nice and I feel good, bit tired today - butb doing alot more.